This is the statement that I heard a few weeks ago as I met with my boss for my yearly planning/budget session. I always thought that I would be the one to leave my job. I always thought that I was the one in control.
All of these years I have been working on building my business. All of these years of writing these articles. All of these years focusing on my own creativity. All of these years continuing to support teachers in the arts.
Well, sometimes it seems the universe takes us in a different direction (or kicks us into the direction we need to take!). Sometimes, that JOB you are holding onto because you believe it to be safe…is now gone! And perhaps, the intention you set all along is now right in front of you.
Change. The only thing upon which we can consistently rely.
This shift that I am right smack in the middle of is showing me some things:
1. I am allowing the emotions flow by, but not taking action from that place. Meaning, I feel all sorts of things, but I am committing to keeping the drama out of the forward intention setting for my next steps.
2. I have (up until this article!) only told a few people at my workplace, my family and 2 close friends. I am finding it more grounding to remain focused on moving forward with only my closest support group. If too many people know, there will be too much drama and I do not wish to be around that right now.
3. I have reached out to several mentors. Even though my money panic is on HIGH alert, I believe that at this time in order to make some clear decisions, I will welcome the support of a coach. Someone who has been down this road, someone I trust and someone who sees in me what is hidden right now (self-worth is looming large, negative and overwhelming!)
4. I have immediately looked at finances, which have been a focus for some time, and I am getting clear on what is needed in the coming months and years to continue to provide for me and my family. It is important for me to note that I still need an income from a job to afford my lifestyle as it is.
5. Finding a schedule that will balance all of this shifting and allow for my business, InnerCreativeVoice (ICV) to continue to flow. Good thing I have put systems in place for my business! This will allow ICV to continue with minimal attention and allow me to put my focus into a career search.
6. I like having both a J-O-B and a business of my own. I enjoy working with others in an environment of collegiality created in a workplace. I also enjoy creating my own on-line business through marketing, articles and programs that bring creativity alive for all of you, my ICV tribe. This balance continues to be important to me.
As this new “shift” is happening, I will be taking you on this journey with me.
The arts and creativity have always been an important part of my work-life experience. Over the years, I have asked myself and my mentors, “How can I run my business and let go of my job?” This question is now switched to a statement:
“I enjoy having both a J-O-B and my own business. Each compliments the other for me.” So…I am beginning the search for my next part-time J-O-B while continuing to consistently focus on my business, Inner Creative Voice.
Welcome to my “shift”! I am encouraged to share with you what this is like as it actually is happening. I welcome your thoughts. Drop me a line and tell me of your experiences.
How do you handle “change”?
(Next week’s article will focus on how I will keep the focus of creativity alive as I move through the uncertainty of change.)